Confessions.12

Previously..

And with that Rayan stopped because her train of thoughts were disturbed by a knock on the door, she looked at the watch. 5:32 am.

 

Rayan quickly got up and opened the door to see her dad standing there. "3baley nemtay..." he said with his tired voice, he kissed her forehead and walked to his room. "Baba wait!" Rayan said just before he reached his room, which was at the far end of the hallway, he turned around, "3adey anam 3endik? Mabey arou7 el'madresa." she said. Rayan avoided eye contact, because her dad knew that it had something to do with Jenan, and she knew that he knew. But his time it wasn't about Jenan, she was afraid of losing her father. He smiled and she walked over to him and gave him a tight hug.

 

Rayan just lay there, she remembered the times when her dad slept in her room whenever she wasn't feeling Oki. "Mara7 tgouliley shfeech?" her dad suddenly said, and she hadn't realized that he's been staring at her, waiting for her to say something. She just shook her shoulders, which meant she wasn't ready to talk. He pulled her into a hug and she dug her face into his chest, her tears staining his shirt. "Its Oki to miss her." he  said with his thick Arabian accent which Rayan always made fun of. "Baba 9ej you're divorcing mom?" Rayan asked, not looking up at him but still hiding her face. Her dad sighed, "Kan wdey tesm3eenha mney ou mo mn omech. Eeeh 7abeebtey 9ej." he said, and Rayan felt the sadness is his voice. She decided that it wasn't the right time to talk about it.

 

The next morning, Rayan woke up before her dad did so she decided to make him a decent breakfast, which was scrambled eggs the way he liked it, a slice of bread and his mug of coffee. Once she took the tray to the dining room, she saw him leaving his room. "Sawaitlek reyoug." she said with a smile on her face. Her dad let out a manly laugh and said "Mn meta ou entay tdesheen el'ma6bakh.". Rayan laughed too. "Things change." she said and gave him a reassuring smile. They both had a delightful breakfast. Its been a while since they spent time together, just the two of them.

 

"Shrayech tyeen m3ay el'dawam el'youm? I can use your help." he said and Rayan couldn't say no. "Help with what?" she asked, because every time he took her with him to work, it was to help with printing papers or forwarding emails. "3endna shabab mqadmeen 3la internship. Sa3deeney bl'files. Ou 3endey meeting mohem el'youm abeech tjahzeen el'awrag." he said while sipping on his coffee. Rayan took a second to think about it, "Are they cute?" she asked jokingly.  Her dad smacked her arm playfully which caused them both to laugh. Rayan excused herself to go get dressed.

 

It took her forever to decide what to wear, but she settled with a beautiful knee length nude pink dress that was longer from the back. She wore it with her white Chloe heels and a pair of white feather necklace. Rayan looked at herself in the mirror. She smiled at her reflection as she grabbed her matte gold over sized purse and walked to her dad's room.

 

"You look good." her dad said once she walked in the room. Rayan blushed, no matter how many times her dad said that to her, she still blushed every time. "Mn zman mo shayfech chthey kaaskha ou tbousemain. Walaht 3la benty." her dad said, while fixing his ghetra and looking at her in the mirror. She walked up to him and hugged him, she didn't know what to say.

 

"Shrayech netghada bra el'youm? Bas ana weyach." He asked. "Oki, bas shar6. Ana akhtar el'ma63am" she said and they both laughed because they never agreed on a restaurant. He side hugged her while leading her outside to the car. They both got in and her dad started driving.

 

Once they arrived to her father's working place. He walked his way into his office and she followed. Her dad sat at his desk and started going through papers while reading his emails at the same time. Rayan just sat there, staring at her father. He was always good at what he's doing, she was proud of her father. His assistant, Tom, walked in. He greeted them both and handed her dad some more files.

 

"Enzain Rayouna 7abeebtey ana barou7 achayek 3la shaghla gbl el'meeting, t3alay abeech tsaweeley el'files." Her dad said white getting up from the chair and making space for her to sit down. Rayan got up and sat  at his chair, feeling like a child wearing his dad's shoes. "Sheftay hathoul el'files? Abeech tratbeenhum 3la 7asab their GPA's Oki? Ou ana na6er email mn Patrick 3arafteeh? etha we9al el'email abeech te6b3eenah m3a el'images ely bydezhom Oki?" He said quickly because he was in a hurry. He kissed her forehead as he thanked her and walked out.

 

Rayan was organizing the files and checking out the men's pictures, some actually looked good in their pictures which she thought was impossible. She laughed at her own thoughts. She wanted to check her fathers email, she moved the mouse and a picture came up. She realized that his computer's background was a picture of them all together. She recognized the picture, it was taken during their vacation in Italy. It was her, her father and her mother grinning at the camera. Rayan stared hard at the picture, then realized that it had been cropped. The original picture had Jenan in it. And Jenan had her arms around Rayan's shoulder and Rayan had hers around Jenan's waist. She thought that maybe her dad had cropped it because seeing the image of Jenan hurt him as much as it hurt her. But even when Jenan was cropped out, they all looked so happy in the picture.

 

Her thoughts were interrupted by a knock on the door. "Uhh.. Guwaa." said the guy standing by the door. Rayan was caught off gaurd, "Tmam el7emdillah." she said, and she mentally slapped herself a million times once she realized how stupid she looked. She looked down at her heels in embaresment. The guy chuckled and scratched the back of his neck. "Muhandes Faisal mawjoud?" He said politely. Rayan looked up to look at him, she took in all his beautiful features. He was pretty tall with a perfect fit body, he had short black hair and his beard was growing. He looked messy but neat at the same time in his grey chinos and a tucked in white button down top. Rayan shook her head, trying to get herself back to reality. "Eeeh mawjoud bas ra7 ychayek 3la shaghlah. Tawa 6ale3, I think he'll be here in 30 minutes or so." she said, her english words fluently sliding out of her mouth. He smiled at her, "Can you tell him Hamad was here? I wanted to ask him about the internship." he said and Rayan was impressed by his accent. He almost didn't have one, he spoke fluently. "Sure." she said with a smile on her face. Hamad was still standing awkwardly by the door. "Would you like to wait here?" Rayan offered and he laughed at himself for looking so awkward. "Thanks for the offer." Hamad said while sitting down in one of the chairs her dad had in his office, facing Rayan.

 

This will be weird, Rayan thought..