It was very weird sitting there with a stranger facing you. She tried to focus on what she was supposed to do, but with a cutie like Hamad staring at her, it was pretty hard. She opened up file by file, looking at their pictures and then down at their GPA's. She tried not to laugh at how good looking men had the lowest GPA's. She checked her dad's email one last time. She found the email her dad had talked about, she printed the images and forwarded the email to her dad's assistant. Hamad was still awkwardly staring at her, every time she looked at him, he would act like he was busy doing something that doesn't involve staring at her.
Hamad let out an awkward cough, and Rayan was too shy to look up. "So..." he said, desperately trying to start a conversation with her. Hamad was stunned by Rayan's natural beauty. She was a spitting image of her father. She had his big wide eyes, thick lashes and full lips. She was hardly wearing any makeupp, but he still thought she was the prettiest things he ever set his eyes on. He noticed her interest in her father's work. "So?" he heard Rayan say while letting out one of her joyful laughs.
Hamad smiled at her and she felt insecure, she wasn't used to good looking men staring at her. Or maybe she was, but she never noticed cause she didn't care about the attention. She opened up one of the few files that were left and looked at the man in the picture. It was Hamad. She laughed unwillingly, he actually looked good in his picture, and he looked even better in a deshdasha and his ghetra. "Shfeech?" he asked while getting up, trying to find out what was making her laugh which caused him to smile himself. He saw his picture inside the file. "El'ghetra tsawey sheghl 9a7?" he said while letting out his manly laugh which Rayan heard for the first time. "Wayed!" she said while laughing.
Her laugh made Hamad smile, and his laugh had the same affect on Rayan too. Almost on que, her dad walked in. "Ohh 7amoud! Shfeek ma dagait kent na6rek!" Rayan's dad said as he patted Hamad's back almost too hard. Hamad laughed, "Yeet hney ou ma legaitek, gelt an6erik." he said while trying so hard to take his eyes away from Rayan because it was inappropriate to stare at her in front of her own father.
"Ha Rayouna khala9tay?" Her dad asked while walking over to her and looking at how she organized the files. Rayan smiled, she loved it when her dad called her Rayouna, and Hamad seemed to notice it. "Eeeh ka tawney khala9t" Rayan said as she got up from the black leather chair and making space for her father. "Eeeh khoush. Mashkoura 7abeebtey." He said and he kissed her cheek. Rayan's dad always treated his daughter like every dad should. He was nice and caring. Rayan couldn't wish for a better dad.
Hamad had excused himself, he said he had classes to attend and that he was late. Rayan wanted to believe that he chose to spend a couple of extra minutes with her and didn't mind being late, but she knew it was wishful thinking. She spent the rest of the day helping around and just being her lazy self. Once her dad had wrapped up his meeting he escorted her to the car.
Rayan said that she was in the mood for Italian food,so they both settled on Alforno, the avenues. Hamad was running around her mind throughout the whole day. She knew it was Oki to have a crush on someone, but she didn't want anything serious to happen, like a relationship or something. She didn't want to lose her fathers trust, she wanted to stick to her morals and she cared about her reputation a lot.
She started thinking about Jenan, if she was still here, what would she have done? Would she allow Rayan to actually fall for this person? Or would she stop her? Because Rayan knew Jenan too well, she knew that Jenan was against relationships in our society. She wanted to listen to her brain, but a voice in her head kept telling her that not everyone is the same.
Rayan had spent a good day with her father and went back home. It was the end of the week, which meant that her dad doesn't have to work tomorrow and she can't see Hamad.
Rayan went up to her room and pulled out on of the scarfs she always wore while playing Confessions. She did the usual and started talking, but this time, she didn't feel like crying...
Hey Janoun! Were you looking over me today? Did you see Hamad? Isn't he just a cutie? Well I saw him first haha! His laugh is so amazing. it gives me goosebumps but in a good way, you know?... You know what? For the first time, ever since you left, I actually felt happy today. I actually smiled and it felt like a real smile not a fake one. I don't mean that I don't miss you, I'd still do anything to be with you, but I was really happy today. My dad made me feel beautiful and good about myself, and Hamad made me laugh. I know you don't approve of this, and I don't either, but I don't know. Nothing happened yet. So I guess I'll have to wait. Even though I was happy today, the pain of missing you still sits there, in my heart. I wish you would hold me in your arms and take all the pain away. Sometimes I want to lock myself in my room and pretend you're here with me. Imagining you is better than nothing right? I'm not afraid to cry anymore, but having to live with you gone still upsets me. I miss you and love you, bestie."
al7en mafahmt jenan mayta aw its a dream?
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