Confessions.39

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Now, confessions.39 as promised!


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School has now become Rayan's least favorite place, after it was the place for memories with Jenan. She spaced out, thinking and worrying about the gathering today. The gathering Abdullah was forcing her to attend. She worried about facing her mother, and admitting she has been ignoring her.


The bell rang, indicating the girls were dismissed for the day. Rayan gathered her English books and forcefully shoved them inside her backpack. She picked up her pen and threw it inside before zipping the bag.


Zaina was absent that day, so Rayan walked out of the school gates alone and started to look around. She searched for her driver at the spot he always parked in, but he wasn't there. She sighed as she decided to wait for him with a group of girls she knew from last year.


The girls were randomly talking, complaining about the upcoming exams. But Rayan noticed one of the girls nudge the other with her elbow and point her chin at a certain direction. Rayan turned around to see Abdullah getting out of his car, wearing his baggy navy training pants from Franklin Marshall and a white v-neck top, making his way towards her.


Rayan let out a breath as she turned around and slowly walked towards him. "Ha shlounech?" Abdullah asked as he carried her bag for her. She smiled at him, "3adey, maku shay ydeed." she said and they ended their conversation at that. Rayan looked up to see girls staring at them, but mostly at Abdullah.


Getting in the car, she stole a glance at Abdullah. He was wearing his Oakley sunglasses, and she noticed that his hair had grown a little and he his beard had grown too. She remembered the way Hamad didn't like to grow his beard, he said it bothered him. Rayan smiled at the thought of him, and his voice never left her mind.


"Elsa3a 4 ne6la3 mn hney 7ag lzwara." Abdullah said once he parked his car. Rayan ignored him and got inside the house. She rushed upstairs and into her room. She lay on her bed and picked up her blackberry. The first thing she did was check her conversation with Hamad.

Hamad:
kalmeeney awal ma trdeen k?

Rayan:
Radaaitttt:p

Hamad:
How was your day?

Rayan:
It was Oki bas wai3 elyoum zwara..

Hamad:
I want you to go and have a good time Ok? La tkhaleen a7ad ythaygech

Rayan:
Enshallah, thanks babe

Hamad:
Babe wla انبوب

Rayan:
Shaku? LOOOOOOOOL

Hamad:
Tha7aktay wla la? Khala9 chub :p

She laughed out loud at his fail attempt of a joke. She loved how he always replied quickly, even though at this time of the day, he was still in uni. She took off her school uniform and changed into jogging pants and a T-shirt and went downstairs for lunch.


"Annie! Where's Abdullah?" Rayan asked Annie, who was setting up the table for lunch. "He's outside." Annie said as she pointed at his figure through the window. Rayan placed her phone on the kitchen counter and walked outside.


"Mo nawey teg6a3?" she asked as she stood behind Abdullah, who was too busy smoking to notice her presence. He quickly put out the cigarette, "Mo sahel." he said as he turned around to face her, his hands in his pockets. "You can if you want to." she said before walking inside, leaving him outside alone.


After lunch, the clock soon striked 4 and Rayan found herself in Abdullah's car. The smell of cigarettes filled the car, and Rayan shifted uncomfortably in her seat. She rolled down the windows and inhaled the fresh air. Abdullah noticed and pulled out his Prada perfume, he started spraying it. "Ma yafreg. Elree7a qaweya." Rayan said once she noticed him. He quietly put away the perfume and continued driving.


Rayan's grandmother's house came into view, but Abdullah took a U turn and drove away. "Shfeek? Kahu el'bait!" she said out loud and Abdullah soon stopped the car. "Mabey agh9ebech 3la shay, bas ely ga3da tsaweenah ghala6." he said. Rayan looked out the window. "Adrey. 3adey nrou7 al7een?" she said coldly. "3ala ra7tech." he said as he drove back to the gathering.


She stood in fornt of the huge door, and looked down at her clothes. She was wearing a black and white checkered top with her black skinny jeans and a red LV scarf. Her hair was sleeked backwards into a ponytail and her hair was softy curled. Her eyeliner was winged perfectly and her lips were covered with her favorite shade of Kate moss' lipstick.


Abdullah pushed the door open and walked before Rayan, leading the way inside. He was wearing his deshdasha without his ghetra, he stood beside the door and his eyes ordered Rayan to enter first, since her girl cousins may not be covered up.


Rayan walked inside to find her grandmother and aunts, along with their daughters, sitting silently, each busy with his own smart phone. "Elsalaam." Rayan said as she first greeted her grandmother. "7ayallaah mn yana! Wainech bnaytey laish ma nshoufech?" her grandmother said and Rayan just smiled at her, not bothering to reply.


After greeting everyone, she walked back to the main door to find Abdullah gone but the door was slightly open. As she moved closer to the door, she overheard a conversation Abdullah was having with one of her older cousins, Dana.


"Shlounek?" Dana asked in her girly voice, obviously trying too hard. "El7emdillah." Abdullah said awkwardly and Rayan almost giggled. "Ma ra7 tdesh?" Dana asked, and Rayan noticed how she was fiddling with her short hair. Abdullah cleared his throat, "Laa ana lazem amshey." he said, excusing himself but Dana didn't get the hint. Rayan walked outside and interrupted their conversation, "3baid bterou7 al7een?" Rayan asked, pretending not to notice Dana. Abdullah smiled at Rayan as his face lit up, thankful she saved him from the awkwardness. "Eeh laish shfeech? Tabeen trdeen ma3ay?" he asked and Rayan just shook her head, "La bas kent bas2elik etha betrou7 starbucks. Abey latte." she said and Abdullah chuckled, "Enshallah." he said before heading to his car.


Dana was standing awkwardly while Abdullah and Rayan were having a smooth conversation. The minute Abdullah walked away, Dana glared at Rayan as she walked past her and inside the house. Rayan rolled her eyes and followed her inside.


After spending some time with her cousins, her mother walked inside the room and was startled to see Rayan. "Shyaybech?" her mother asked and Rayan got up to greet her. "Haw zwara. Ya3ney khala9 ma aye?" Rayan asked, "Te7achay 3dl." one of her cousins said and Rayan turned around and gave her a "can you please keep it to yourself?" smile.


"Obouch yaybech?" Rayan's mother asked as she sat down two seats away from Rayan. "La obouy msafer." Rayan said as she pulled out her blackberry. "Menu yaybech 3ayal?" Her mother asked again. "Brou7ey." Rayan replied.


"Laa khaltey Abdullah yayebha." Dana said. Rayan was very uncomfortable because of Dana. "Eeeh 9a7 le2ana entay kentay barra ga3da tetlazegain feh." Rayan sadid to Dana with a very cold smile on her face. "Entay shfeech? Ashouf lsanech 9ayer sh6oulah!" Her mother yelled at her and Rayan was glued back to her place.


She sat there silently while everyone was engaged in some kind of conversation. She pulled out her blackberry and bbm-ed Hamad.

Rayan:
I hate this...

Hamad:
Laish? shfeech baba?

Rayan:
Ma9adeg! Esloubhum 9ayer khayes ma3ay ou omey t7eb t'haze'ney jedmahum...

Hamad:
Affaa! Mo malzouma teg3deen, 7abeebtey reday elbait.

Rayan:
Okay:(


She bbm-ed Abdullah and kindly asked him to pick her up as soon as possible. Abdullah replied quickly and told her that he was at a Dewanya nearby and that he would be there in less than 5 minutes.

She excused herself and decided to wait for him outside. As soon as she stepped outside and made sure the door was locked, she broke down crying. It hurt her, the way her mother yelled at her. It hurt her how everyone was treating her like an outsider. It hurt her, the way she missed her mother but couldn't admit it.


Abdullah's car came into view and she quickly wiped away her tears with the back of her hand. She got into the car and Abdullah turned off the radio once he noticed her smudged eyeliner. "Rayoun shfeech? Sh9ar?" he asked, very concerned about her. He thought that by forcing her to go, it would help bring her and her mother back together. But he thought wrong.


Rayan cried silently the whole ride back home. She ignored Abdullah's question. She kept dodging his attempts at igniting a conversation until he parked the car infornt of her house. She tried to get out but the doors were locked, she turned to look at Abdullah. "Maku nazla lma tgouliley sh9ar." he said. She forced a smile. "Deg 3la omey ou es'alha sh9ar. Al7een betba6el wla shloun?" she said and Abdullah unlocked the doors.

She rushed upstairs and into her room and locked the door behind her.She anticipated to hear Hamad's voice, telling her everything will be Oki. She desperately needed him. She needed him to whisper his comforting words through the phone. She needed him to work his magic and make her smile.


She dialed his number and pressed her phone against her ear, her tears started streaming down her cheecks but she kept wiping them. "Alooo?" a soft girly voice said through the phone and Rayan was left speechless. She pulled the phone and away and read the contact ID again, making sure it was Hamad. And it was positive. She remained silent. "Aloo?" the girl said again and then innocently chuckled.


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Cliffhanger? LOL I love it.
Same deal, the more comments I see, the sooner I post.:p